21 Jan Bad days
It’s all in the title, isn’t it? Why do I feel like writing about it?!? Because we all have them, don’t we?
Those bad days that come like dark clouds on sunny days…those bad days that drive you crazy, make you be grumpy, make you feel stuck, overwhelmed, make you want to scream and you can’t wait for it to be over.
Well I can tell you that I know I’m going to have a bad day even from the first hour of the morning. They say : “How you start your morning sets the tone for the rest of the day. … Using the first hour of your day wisely can set you up for a very productive ” And they are right…but then again…there are some days when nothing works.
Yesterday was one of them, of course it all started with a bad night sleep (kids waking me up 2 times and me not being able to fall asleep fast) and then I woke up and I knew it…I tried my best though, like I usually do. Listen to my favourite happy songs ( including Jerusalema, What a feeling, Savage love :)) and tried to dance.
It didn’t work….I had my coffee and I even tried to not stress about posting on Instagram or other stuff. I had my breakfast thinking it has to be a good day and I really believed it for a minute.
But then I had to start doing lessons with my two cheeky monkeys and their reaction (on a daily basis by the way) just made all my positive thoughts vanish!! I started being angry at the whole situation: being stuck at home, having to do school with the kids, not being able to see our family and friends, not knowing when all will end! I even cried…and after 4 hours of fighting the kids I felt sorry for how I behaved, wishing next day we’ll get along better.
And after finishing the household chores and home schooling I had to be ready to work on my latest custom portrait…to be calm so I can focus on all those little details to get the perfect resemblance, to think about the background, trying to find my inspiration in a foggy mind, full of anger and remorse….
These ugly hours affect my performance, I can’t paint as good as I could, or maybe my emotional state stops me from seeing it as a good job! It’s hard, not even the classical music I usually listen to helped…nothing…just the hope that the next day would be a better day! And it usually is, as nothing lasts forever 🙂 Yesterday I struggled with this portrait, I had to go back on each detail thousands of times as I couldn’t see clearly anymore…the photo didn’t help either so it was even more pressure…but I like a challenge so I kept on working on it.
I finally managed to finish it, but only today when I felt calmer and it’s definitely a better day 🙂
So don’t beat yourself up if you have those kind of crazy days…be kind to yourself, do as much as you can, try to change it by listening to some good music, maybe do some exercises, but if nothing helps just take it as it is…we all deserve a break and we all go through these horrid days…and always try to remember, there’s someone out there who suffers 10 times more than you do.
Wishing you less bad days and more good ones and don’t forget, live life in colour!